Crybaby post

This past week we sent the baby in the family off to serve his 2 year mission. With my brother living in Arizona, my sister serving in Colorado, and my little brother in the Provo MTC, it sucks being the only one here to fend for myself. Now my parents give me all this unwanted attention, and there's really no one here to vent to, fight with, or to just keep me company. I know it's only been a couple of days, but I've realized a lot!

I've realized how mean I've been. I am the mean sister. The one who talks back, the one who never listens, the one who always has to have the last word. I am so that girl! Lol!

I've realized that although I have plenty of other siblings(my cousins) no one quite understands me like how they do. I used to get annoyed of my siblings because we all were just opposite from each other....well, except joe- we probably thinked too much alike that we just annoyed eachother! Lol, but that was just us! We all are totally different, but that's what made home feel like home. 

I'd never think in a million years that I'd be losing sleep over my siblings...But here I am, wide awake, with my pillow drenched in tears, just missing my realest best friends. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful that they are out doing what they need to do, and I know I'll be seeing them soon, but I think I'm just not used to the whole *celine dion voice* all by myself, scene. Our bond is unique, the way we show our love to each other is kind of off, and we still try to fight over who our parents favor more( which I already know it isn't me, but I just fight for the heck of it! Lol) I couldn't

 imagine my life with out them, and am grateful that god has blessed me with 3 of the most ugliest people I call my siblings! Until the day we will all be reunited, god speed fam❤️