Friday, February 10, 2012

New Life as a WIFE.

February 3rd, 2012.
 MARRIED. LAWFULLY WEDDED. COMMITTED. SO IN LOVE.




I feel so renewed, and at a new page in my life, where i take full coverage and control. Married to the love of my life, and it didn't take me years to realize that. I AM A VICTIM OF LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT, and let's just say i couldn't be anymore happy then this. We may be young, and still have a lot to learn, just thankful that will be able to learn through life's lessons together. We are definitely still in that honeymoon stage, and i get sooooo baby hungry now that marriage has made its toll, but will have to be patient. when the blessing comes, i know ill be all for it ;) 

I look back, and my gosh, a year got me to where i am standing today. I hate the fact that I have no idea as to what my future holds. I use to be so organized, as to what i know what will come next, but only god knows what's best for me. I'm thankful i survived my downfall moments.....I would go through it all over again just because i know it will end up sweet. 

Travis and I always have our daily talks. Who would've thought we would get hitched after 7 months of intense dating....and by intense i mean long walks on the sandy beach ;) hahaha. I'm glad god showed me that there are still GREAT MEN out there who were raised right. He's all I've ever expected from a husband and more. I'm too in love to let a great man EVER leave my life.....I know that there is 3 BILLION other people who know exactly how I feel. Crazy how god works right. 3 billion people know how you feel, and yet we are still so different, that our love feels so unique. 

How did we meet? oh thanks for asking! haha, well......IT'S FATE! hahahaha, our best friends dated, soooo, we were the tag-a-longs, and there rides. AT FIRST, I wanted to do some serious 'shave my back'(that's a metaphor for kill my self) for saying yes to lupe ill take her to see her boy friend, because i would have to sit there and listen to travis talk about all these girls he's made out with, or kissed, or dated. my first Impression towards travis: IMMATURE LITTLE !@#$ I DONT CARE !@#$%^&&*(^%*(&^%^$$!!!!!(of course he was unusually attractive, so i had to say this all in my head)anyway- days prolonged to weeks, and his never-ending stories of how he's dated so many girls seemed TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE!! I started to make up all these boys names just so i can sound just as PIMP DADDY as he was. I mean, i admit, i became jealous a little. He seemed to be more attractive every time we WERE FORCED to hangout! after endless nights of comparing who hooked up with more people, he finally told me he liked me.....OOOOOh I didn't give in.....i ....just..............hesitated........okay then i gave in! At first, i always asked myself, why am I dating a  guy who's uncle does intense karate moves outta nowhere?( i'm not lying he has an uncle who's amazing as karate) I finally realized that it wasn't his uncles karate moves i was in to, it was Travis himself. 

Now i can sit here and brag about how amazing travis is but...........No, im gonna sit here and brag about how amazing my husband is because EVERYONE NEEDS TO KNOW! Lol. Humble. It's hard to find those kinda guys now days. His passion is to be a helping hand towards others. He respects his family and others in various ways, i feel like he's way too good for me at times. THAT'S when you know for sure, he was raised by a hardworking, dedicated mother who did all she did for her kids. It shows, and i get to witness that everyday, just by the things he does for me. He may be quiet, but has a HUGE HEART. a silent leader i should say. Because I like to be very observant, and just watch how people react to things, I watch him on they daily, and he may not be the guy who has all the money in the world, but he has those killer abs that get me on a Samoan high hahahaha, im kidding, but he has this amazing caring, respectful  personality, that automatically let's you know he's one you can count on, and i would trade all i have just to be able to be with someone like that. I know for a fact he would do anything just for me, even get me to eternity. 

I talk to some of my co-workers, and they tell me their stories of their marriage life. One of my co-workers told me how her husband passed away and left her with two kids. I get so emotional, i went to the bathroom and cried. Even the thought of losing him is something I fear for. When were not together, I miss him more than ever. I can't imagine ever losing him, a lifetime partner, 'soulmate.' But I know that when were finally able to make it to the celestial kingdom, ill be able to be with him more than just this life time, but for the next. 

It's funny how time all of a sudden time matters when you have someone to share it with. there will never be enough time to spear, so enjoy every moment of it. You never know when your time will stop, so looove harder than before, because when you begin not to care, so will time.

Married, and at our own spot, working harder than ever just to pay bills. All worth it, because i get to wake up everyday right next to the man that holds more than my heart, more than my soul...he holds my wallet, and all my credit cards ;) 

As for this new life, im going full throttle, and not slowing down ;) 
 xoxo - Peni's.