all about me and my Selfish Love.

If you know me, like real well, you know im very short tempered, and that when i have something to say, ill say it.

My dad says im easily influenced, and i always think with my emotions and not Logically. (gosh, i really hate when hes right)

at times i feel like i can pass as the omen child, or satans advocate..im really an angel tho.(trrrustt me hehehe)

I notice when i fall into a selfsih love. pride of myself.
-i become very hard headed.
-everything i do is not what i was taught to do.
-my every thought is what good will this do for me.
-i blame my actions on others, and expect everyone to feel bad for ME, and not the others.
-i never want to be the reason, rather the victim of every problem.
-i take for granted what i have, and love the things i WANT more than the things i NEED.

I would never let my guard down, because the feeling of getting hurt just leads me to the rut..

though all the times i thought i was above my game, i was really under it.

..and instead of me thinking i was only hurting myself, i was hurting everyone around me.

I am a sincere lover, but also very dangerous. Im fast to love, and fast to regret. So  Fool me once, dont expect to fool me again.

People that dont matter to me, i ignore, rather then forgive.. but what good does that do, rather be just as the same boat as them?(fix that line)

Fake is an understatement. I pick and choose my battles, just because i dont want to fight you doesnt mean i cant own up, it SERIOUSLY just means, you really have nothing i want OR need, so rather then you making a fool out of yourself, ill let you talk alllllll you want, your still not gonna get to me.

My love for myself grew into a sin, and the more i lost myself in my own love, the more i caredless about what mattered.

I never thought i could Love, because i was too fast, and i wanted what my friends had, what my sisters had, what my parents have.

never realizing that everyone has there good and bad with love.

Until i met someone TOTALLY OPPOSITE OF ME.

humble and charming.

respectful and thoughtful.

..so different, yet totally the same.

they weren't lying when they say opposites attract, but i see myself in him so much-

LooOOOoOoOve is most definitely blind, especially to me-one who never thought i could Love as much as i do.

i seriously use to think, why do people change because of there significant other?why don't they just do it for themselves?

well, i finally know the answer to that. As for me-

i see myself soo much in my Lover. He seriously shows me what i deserve, and my potential to be a better person.

Shows me who i really am, even when i cant do it myself.

you see yourself so much in someone, you know you could be a better you.

I mean yeah, it took me to find someone to know my worth.

but to spend eternity with someone who can always show you that every morning, everyday, every second-

i will change myself for that-

God doesn't expect us to live this world lonely, but to find someone who can show you pure greatness.

So i learned to be selfish no more, and to Love even my enemies, because even they show you how much your worth.

talk all about your accomplishments, only because they see your worth.

and for this hard head of mine- i still have to learn to soften it, but its nice to know that im strong in the many things i do. a hard headed women, makes an amazing mother :)

I am truly thankful for whats been thrown my way. Times are changing, and sometimes changing is a good thing.

I've realized that just because my life sucks a whole lot, doesn't mean i should take everyone down with me. "SERVICE BEFORE SELF."

im glad i was able to be a victim of this self-fish love.

taught me to understand not only my flaws, but to know that even though you've been through the worst, you can still become great.

your worth can never go hidden, so do hide it.

Love my bloggers<3<3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo!

Unseen blessings.

Life. We all hate the small times where we had no idea what to do in a situation, or times where we've just about done all we can, but still seems like were making no kind of progress. Once we feel like we've got everything under control, BOOOOOOOM, the unnecessary happens, and back to the same hole we crawl into. I know i was like this. toooo much to handle, i became more scared to try something new, because i felt like everytime i got something good, there was always something that ruined it.

but, I GAVE LIFE A SECOND CHANCE, AND IT GAVE ME A GREATER BLESSING.

The famous quote, no one said it would be easy, but it will be worth it-is by all means the greatest quote ever quoted.

we all have our different perceptions, and meanings when it comes to hearing this, but bottom line is, sometimes even the worst moments, ARE the greatest blessings.

For example. My family. Not perfect in anyway, but because of our imperfections, we are perfect.
My family never fails to keep me smiling from ear to ear.
My flaws and weaknesses, pulls me closer to them in every form and way.

And yes at times theres fights and dramatice moments,
but at the end of the day, Love is all we feel to keep the bond mutual.

Im super thankful for my nieces and nephews.
Sooooo innocent, but yet sooo annoying.
Its them who make me 100% happy.

I seriously talk about them more than i talk about anyone else.
and i know my co-workers are super tired of me showing them millions of pictures of my nieces and nephews.

but there hearts are soo innocent and pure, i feel like thats the closest ill ever be to god, is thru the hearts of his children.

Small things like them are the reason why I keep my head high, and my Love higher.
I truly am thankful for everyone and anyone.
Lifes teachings,
amazing Love from friends,
My amazing sisters...

It doesn't have to be thanksgiving for me to be filled with gratitude. Everyday is a test, and every yesterday is a lesson.

My blog for this week. I Love you all. Have an amazing Labor Day. :) XoXO