:)

all i can say is i'm HAPPY :)

and no one can ruin this happy.

AMAZiNG!

This week is our spring break. not that ive been on spring break for the past three weeks, but when i finally decide im ready to go back to school, they tell me its spring break.GGREAAT!haha, i aint complaining tho, another week for me to prepare myself for hell!hate school soo much im gonna stop talking about it!ha-

A N Y W A Y -

because i barely found out that is was spring break, i didnt make any plans to go anywhere causing me to stay home and babysit my baby brothers, make macaroni and cheese, and camp on youtube!im telling ya, this is the life.................NOT!im patiently waiting on conference weekend to come!yes i am excited!its gonna be poppin!hopefully, hahaha, cuhz last year-was a recepie for diaster!SERIOUSLY!but no re-runs of that!haha-

sooo, being the bored mother fugger that i am, i camped on youtube!and let me tell ya, i am shocked to see how our polynesian community can SING!and we can sing until the fat lady gets her puaka!haha, seriously tho, i am proud to say the the polynesians have the most AMAZING VOICES EVER!well, for the most part-some people i was just like-UHHHMM, DTM!haha, but its good to know that youtube is one way we can become famous. people say go on american idol, but those judges have

NO IDEA WHAT REAL MUSIC IS!

i swear, i was soooo jealous listening to some of these people sing!i wish i had the guts to post myself singing.....BUT I DONT!BOO FREAKIN HOO!hahaha, anyway-yeah big up's too all of those posting themselves doing amazing stuff!!best of luck to you all!soo proud to be polynesian! :)

im gonna bust a crazy and not go into work today!haha, i dont care-its parent teacher conferences, and all i do is stand for 5 hours passing out papers that parents can get themselves!SHOOT!haha, but its cool-tonights the candle light vigil for Pita Kapetaua, so ill be there for my sister rachael who was the fiance of pita!happening on redwood road at nine o clock tonight, so if ya aint doing anything-come out and support us as we come together and remorse over the death of pita and nielson :)

well, cant write much cuhz im craving some hook and ladder right about now!LOVE YA'LL!

I wanna live in the sky.

We never realize how fragile life is until we lose what means most to us. Nothing hurts more than never being able to hear the love of your life say those sweet three words that makes your whole life complete.i can only imagine what my dear sister rachael haiola is going through at this time. I pray that she will be strong, and focus on baby irie!put her whole life into moving and making a better life for her and baby.
Its sad when you see someone die young.they aint lying when they say god works in mysterious ways. Sometimes bad things fall apart so greater things fall together, and although memories are just memories, those are the times we cherish most with our loved ones. Deepest thoughts and prayers go out also to the kalekale family.moochi was one short kid!ha, but family is eternal, and theres no doubt that we will see him again.
And then japan.to know that the other side of the world is at its lowest, and im here on the other side not able to do much. I feel like i have been taking this life of mine for granted, but what else do i do-all the signs of the last days are here, and im just chillin on the weekends drinking long islands??haha, no but i do hope that it gets better for japan.i pray for all the souls to be saved.
Another depressing week.

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found my motivation!

okay to these past three weeks have been nothing but a nightmare!i dont know, i guess you can say-i was tired of reality. i was tired of everything and everyone!i was PRAYING FOR 2012 to hurry and come so i can die already!I have no idea whats gotten into me. I know education is SUPER important, but i couldnt seem to find the motivation to keep me going to school.IT WAS HORRiD!but no worries, im back to being me again...or slowly recovering-but i am HAPPY again.wayy happy.actually TOO HAPPY that i peed in my pants alittle!hahahaha!anyway-i hope all of you had an amazing tuesday!gLee was hella awkward rightt??i didnt mind too much, i actually was glad i watched it, saves me from talking about "IT" with my parents...well they wouldnt wanna talk about it anyway-haha!thats all for today :)

gag me and throw me under a bus!

girls, women, ladies-WHY DO WE ALL FALL FOR THE SAME GUYS?!?! especially in Utah, i mean rumor has it about most guys, there either undercover freaks(which i fall for ALL the time!haha) then the guys who say stuff, and we totally believe 'em(when deep down inside we know there lying) then, we have the 'TOO IT AND BOOT Its' who will sweet talk you, and take advantage of you until they get what they want most out of you!(thats sex) dont get me wrong, i fall for 'em too, but gassh, it's like they all play the same game!what grosses me out even more is those guys who still have the NERVE to walk around the place acting like we cant see the herpes on there lips!GAG!

i went to a parlay last night, and it was cool, everyone having a great time, living life to the fullest-awesome, UNTIL:this guy walks in, pants unbuttoned, holding on to his-yeaaahh, walks in to the room and yells, WHO WANTS IT?!im like, REALLLYYY?are you kidding me right now?but he wasnt, ooohh he was serious. he walked up to every single girl, and spit the same game, what was even more sad was that girls fell for it!three girls all went into the bathroom with him, and heaven forbid, i can only imagine what was going on.im saying to myself, thats only one guy, i mean-theres other fishes in the sea right?WRONG!i walk out, and see another dude that just finished macking on some other girl grab my hand and ask, whats your style? okay stupid me answers,"the good style." OMG, wth is that suppose to mean?hahahaha, then he goes, oh yeah, me too!hahahahahahahaha!anyway-the girl he was with just stares and is like, he's mine, BLAH BLAH BLAH!i look at her and start laughing, YOU REALLY THINK I WANNA DO YOUR 5'0 foot tall BF?!BWAHAHAHA!anyway, i keep walking, outside to see where my friends at, only to find out that she was with some dude.hoiii, by now i was like, i shouldve talked to the 5'0 tall guy to keep me company!hahahaha, BUT NO WORRIES i didnt!

anyway-i walk to my friends car because she asked me to get the case, and her box of stoges, and see a handsome guy, chillin with two other guys by my friends car. so what do i do?play the "im so drunk, i need help getting stuff out of my car," move. i walk towards em and go, hey i need help bringing some stuff into the house, can you help me?he says yes, then grabs the case, and we start walking back. YES i FINALLY HAVE A BUDDY!hahahahahahahaha, im asking him how he knows so and so, and how come hes just chillin outside.hes like too much creeps in there, and all-im like okay im gonna take this in and come out and chill with you guys. he didnt mind. i put the case down then run outside, he was still there. im like aweee, hottie with a body!long hair dont care!hahaha, but he was like the sweetest thing!i wanted to rape him already!hahaha, just kidding....kinda hahahaha, but anyway-his friends were gonna go get another case and he stayed, and asked to go walk around?i didnt even hesitate and yelled YEAH!hahaha, we walk, and talk, and stop, and do all of that!hahaha, anyway-im going in for it when he pulls out his phone cuhz his girl is calling!OH HELL NO!OHHHH HEEEEELLLLLLLL NOOOOOOO!hes like telling me to shhhhhuuusshh and all, im like HELL NO, KICK ROCKS!and walk away-he comes right back and was all like, dont trip i just broke up with her over the fone!BWAHAHAHA, im not stupid-i wasnt born yesterday dumbass!!I MEAN COME ON, at least turn your phone off!hahaha, no im kidding, but dont get into a relationship if ya cant be loyal!SERIOUSLY!thats one thing i CANNOT stand, is when you cheat on your bf/gf! anyway-i just told him that he needs to stop playing stupid!i did ask him if he had a girl earlier, he said no-dont be soo sure to always take there word for it!UGH!

SERIOUSLY GUYS-dont be dumb, if ya got a boo-be true to her, i mean-same goes for girls, and if ya cant be tied down, dont get into one ANYWAY!i know not all guys arent the same, but after last night-i really only see guys as all being the same. ugh-thats my blog for Saturday-

vee.dee.O blog!

Never endinggg :(

What do you do when you see someone with such a great heart get fooled by someone who only uses half of there heart?what does LOyAL really mean in a relationship.if "what your man dont know wont hurt 'em" how about the ones who do know?the "bystanders?" I dont wanna see the ones i love most get hurt over something they dont deserve to get by.but then again is it right for me to butt in?i dont wanna be the reason for the breakup, but neither do i wanna see someone i love most get hurt for putting all his/her effort into something that is based on lies.is letting the person know the same thing as being the homewrecker?!who am i to this relationship?but who is this person to me?!ughhhhh, help please :( ill be funny tomorrow-i just got alot to think about.sweetest dreams to you all :)

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Never satisfied.

If theres one thing that i cant stand, it would be needy people.the ones who always need someone, or expect someone to do it for them.ughh-im glad my parents taught me ever since i was young that if i wanted something, i had to go out at get it, work for it!i mean, i admitt, im a needy ass bitch when im drunk, but im talking bout on the daily!like ugh people who have a bf, or gf, and always text asking where there at, what there doing, they need this, they need that-GROW THE HELL UP!were all only human, and you expect everyone to meet you full speed ahead while you just stand there and expect everyone to bow down to your ass!HELL NO!!best believe you meet me half way!do your part, and ill do mines. Come at me like a bitch, and expect me to bitch right back!hahaha, i laugh when people deny the truth.are you mad just because you got caught?!ughh, come on-this is life, be straight up-or fuck off!FOR REAL!who are you to me?!nothing compared to what my family is to me!grow up, and stop being self centered.wont get you annnnyywwwhhheeerrreee!thats my tuesday blog :)

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who?........................cares!

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."
- Anon

Meet my....crazy, dont give a hootin' dingle berry about anybody, LOUD, never EVER serious, crybabies, hardest gangsters on the block BESTEST friends :)
my boyfriends when we go out, the ones who have my back when no one else does, the ones who tell me straight up if my zippers down, or a big ole' booger is in my nose, my "THIRSTY" kalapu, the ones who helped me beat up the fehoko girls for fun, the ones who laughed so hard when i told them how bObO beat up cindy afu at the mall-basically sisters from different misterrrrzz!

bObO-undercover ringleader...thats just because she has a car.too many funny memories-funniest one: back to school party, and i think we drank a tad bit toooo much, she was sitting on the couch with "SOME KID," while i was looking for a bucket for her to throw up in, walked back intot he livingroom, and she was macking on the kid....i sat and watched for 3 mins, and then, out of nowhere, THRRROOOOWWWW UPPPPPP all over the kids shirt!BWAHAHAHAHA, and to top that off, she just got up, and walked straight into the room, and knocked out, while the kid sat there, licking the throw up off his lips!hahahahaha-

Lupe-the FOR REALLLYY good one. they call me the devils child cuhz all i do is tempt this girl to do stuff with me!hahaha, i do it for fun, and she knows im playing!hahaa, but always the DD. shes one quiet girl, but once you set her on fire, have fun trying to set her out!SHES WVC CUHHRAZYY!hahaha.funniest memory:idk if she remembers this but freshmen year, we all planned to go sadies, we did the shopping AND EVERYTHING!lupe had a partner, i had one, bo had one-so anyway we were just posted at her house for a good minute..she never came out, we were like WTH is wrong with this puto!haha, so me and bo charge inside to her house, and shes at the corner crying her EYES OUT cuhz her mom said she couldnt go!BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!dude, she embrasses herself HELLA EASily!like this other time-FRESHMEN year right..we try to roll with the biggdawggz, and drive around bo's grandpas car around the neighborhood, just to see if any hott guys would see us driving!HAHA lame, i know-anyway lupe was dying to drive the car, so bo was like okay-pulls off to the side, and lets this stupid girl lupe drive. LUPE-being the stupid one too,drives by her house, IDK she does, then stops at the stop sign, and her mom is at the other stop sign.now usually you would play it off, esp if your not driving your car-and you dont have a lisence right?!NNOOOOOO!this girl, puts the car in park, and tries to hide!HOW THE HELL do you hide when your the freakin driver!?BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA long story short, her mom stopped right in front of us, and yelled at lupe to get out of the car....we werent able to hang out with lupe for 2 weeks!hahahahahaha-

Mona-i dont think people understand mona's mindset-SHES CRIP CRAZZYY!BWAHAHA, nbfrt. shes one girl i do not wanna mess with. shes basically the reason why whenever we get in fights, none of us are bruised up.she really does all the work!HAHAHA. funnest memory: we were soo pissed about how this girl did our friend, Teesa, hella wrong. mind you that this isnt our problem, but when you put four losers that have no lives together, we do some stupid shit. anyway-we go and get eggs, pee in containers, mix all these stuff together so we can go get these girls houses!hahahaha, OH man-we got the house, and we were coming back around so we can throw rocks at the windows, and the girls house that we got were following us the whole time!HAHAHA, well since they caught us, might as well fight them right?no biggie, we chase 'em down, and they finally stop!anyway, one of the girls hella came to my window and started punching the shit outta it like skittles were gonna pop out or something!i hella got out and punched her cuhz shit, my mom and dad had no idea that i took the car, and if they wake up to a broken window, i would pay for it!anyway, we get out of the car, and start fighting.it was like an action movie!hahaha, anyway-MONA being the crip kullazzzyyy hella beats all three of them up!ALL THREE.you think im lying, but im not!DUDE, one minute she was bombing on the liddo sis, then giving the middle sis a big ass weggie, then pulling the older sisters hair out of her head!OMG i thot that was something only jackie chan can do, but mona-pppfffttt you truely are one scary ass nigguh!hahaha, thats why were besties! :)

im not obsessed with my best friends, i just laugh because sooooo many people try and brake us!!and they have for the loooonnnggeeessttt time. seriously, bo's grand idea was to come up with a squad called the stupid squad, and everyone hated us!WHO CARES!hahahahahhahahaha, no, but really-Love these girls to pieces!hahahaha!ohh man, one time we put a couch in front of koti lao's house, and blamed it on lupe!BWAHAHAHAHAHA!love my mains :)

homework sucks all the fun out of me.

right now, all i wanna do is stab my pile of homework until i see it bleeding.(i know, its impossible.)soo??im gonna do it anyway.this tuesday sucks!back to reality tomorrow.took a looonnnng break, and i still look like i have two tennis balls in my mouth.argghh.

on a good note-
finished one whole math section that had 45 problems in it :)




now, all i have to do 4 more sections just like that, containing the same amount of problems.
ouchh, soo hurtful!

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sunday fundays.

Besides the fact that i'm still stuck in bed looking like quamire off of family guy, i DIDN'T have a good nights sleep thanks to my sister, who misplaced my medicine, making me wide awake, and feeling all sorts of pain. My goodness, never in my life have i ever felt like punching my little sister in the face(while she was sleeping, of course) here i am in my room rubbing my two big cheeks, hoping they would eventually stop hurting, of course they wouldn't because rubbing 'em only made the pain worse!As mad as i was at my little sister, i decided to wet her hair(because she had straightened it saturday night), and wrinkle her church clothes(because she had ironed her church clothes for sunday, which is today.) knowing my revenge would make her cry all morning, i second guessed my actions, and ended up not doing it.(Ill do it on April Fools.Hopefully she remembers why i'm doing it.) soo, besides all of the saturday night madness, i slept in, and just woke up.(hey, i totally desrve it.)

ANYWAYzzzzzzzZzzZzZzzzzZZzzZ...

Being that it's stake conference today, my family is having one of our many GREAT get togethers. Sucks for me-while everyones gulping down amazing homemade food, i'm gonna be stuck in the corner with a spoon, and slurpping away two yogurts!if you haven't pulled out your wisdom teeth, make sure you do it on a weekend, where you know there will be no food what-so-ever! i feel like i lost 10 pounds.....haha, okay im being dramatic, i feel like i only lost 20, BUT ANYWAY!ahaha, I have decided that i hate yogurt, and i will never eat it ever again!you don't even know(well, those who haven't pulled out there wisdom teeth yet) how annoying pulling out your wisdom teeth can be!First-you look like you have the mumphs.Second-you only eat smooth, cold things like shakes, and yogurt....and soup(that has to be super cold). Third-the only teeth you can actually brush is the ones in the middle(meaning YES half of my teeth still smell like yesterdays soup) fourth-you look like your head weighs more than your body....or is that just me?better not be!but yes, as much as i can sit here and complain about How bad it sucks to pull out all four wisdom teeth, i know that it will eventually pay off...but until then, my life SUCKS a whole lottah!!someone please get a shaver, and shave me bald :(

..on a good note-
well, because my mouth was hurting like a mother, and my eyes were pouring out with tears, i tried to distract myself by watching youtube videos, and clicked on the one with christina agularia(or how ever you spell it.)turns out it was the song, Hurt(if you haven't heard it, you must, SOOO freakin beautiful)anyway, i started crying harder because it was soooo sad, that me put me to sleep. soo, thank you christina, i'll be sure to play that song everytime i have a toothache. :)

P.S.-it's been 3 days since i deactivated my fb account...kinda miss it, BUT nothing beats blogging!(i need to slow down my blogging actually, i talk about the same thing.but you guys LOVE it right?!)haha

saturday night!

It's the WEEKEND, and i'm stuck in bed, with my medicine, and something superr healthy, raspberry donuts. the perfect mixture right!my sister thinks it's gross, but i think shes weird all around. but i don't say much! ugh! ahaha.
another MOVIE NIGHT with my liddo man, and liddo brothers Joe and Kingsley. Not that we watch the Alvin and the chipmunks 5 BILLION TIMES, but we watched the other guys 6 billion times, because Kingsley likes the crude humor. NOTE to SELF-don't watch PG-13 movies with 5 year olds, the word "balls" is the funniest word ever made!awkward word also?!pfft, hell ya!LOL, anyway-not much to write today, other than the fact that everyone went to the 7's, and i'm suck at home looking like i have the bad case of the mumps!SHAVE ME BALD and throw me under the bus!Lol, really though, we have stake conference tomorrow, and i'm going to play like i have a fever so i can stay, knowing my mom, she doesn't care if we had a raccoon biting our booty, we would still have to go to church!She is one religious lady, and i don't mind at all.

goshhh, i love this MOVIE!! Damien is the funniest gay guy ever!he reminds me of my bestie Rico, except Rico is way hotter, and not as funny, but there close to the same!anyway, here's the scenes  that crack me up for days, and days, and DAYS on end!love mean girls :)

under sooo much medication!argghhhhh!!!

today i took a trip to the dentist, and you know how that goes. coming in with a toothache, and leaving the place looking like Shrek, or is that just me?ahaha.well i got ALL 4 wisdom teeth pulled out, and feeling all sorts of unbearable pain!i hate when the doctor has to numb your mouth, he put that needle in like 6 or 7 times, and boy i hate that feeling, and the taste!well, anyway, i got there at 8:45ish, got treated, and left around 10. i love my dentist tho, I've been with Dr. Hamilton ever since i can remember. hes been an amazing dentist, always giving me a sticker and a tooth brush, and telling me to floss every time i come in, which he probably is super irritated because i never floss! ahaha, but its cool. they have TV's when you lay on the chair, so ill be watching scary movies, but laughing my head off because of the laughing gas, which by the way, is the only reason why i still take trips to the dentist!Laughing gas is amazing! I swear that stuff is made out of weed, because it just keeps me rolling for days on end! ahaha, oh man i wish i was under some laughing gas now! ahaha, anyway- my lips are chapped as hell!and my cheeks look like the cartoon, ed, Edd, and eddy when there eating those big ol' jaw-breakers! ugh, i would take a picture, but................................nahh!ahaha! well, i just woke up, and tried to make netflix work on the Xbox, but its no wenos!So me and my liddo man hiva are gonna go rent red-box!yaayyy!! hopefully i can drive good, because after taking doses of all these pills, i feel super woozy! but its nothing i cant handle!!Lol, well bloggers, this is gonna be one SUPER-BORING Friday! but i wouldn't wanna be anywhere else. :)

On a good note-
valentines day is coming up, and until this day i haven't had my first valentine yet!cant complain-I HATE VALENTINES DAY!LOL, no i'm kidding, i get super jealous that everyone has a lover, and i'm still trying to find mine on match.com!HAHAHAHA! but you can't rush L-O-V-E so when it happens, ill be ready! until then my dear friends, KICK ROCKS!
and OH-its been two days since i deactivated my FB, and no withdrawals or anything!i can say i conquered the web monstahhhhh! whoop-Dee-fuggin-do!!

using my common sense.

this DRINK is the bomb dot com!i swear. if i had only one drink to drink the rest of my life, it would be this, only because i go cOcOnuts for...well, coconuts!hahaha!spanish people and there amazing taste in drinks!thats a two thumbs up from me jose and ricoooooshay!hahaha!seriously, go get one!haha-

Eni-wuhh-ayyzz!

Today.hmmm, all i felt like doing was wishful thinking. i only had one class today, so it gives me time to do homework, and anything else i need to catch up on. i go to salt lake communty college, and you would think because its a COMMUNITY college, it would be super easy. pssshhhtt, i aint gonna lie, it is!hahahahaha!i think why im having the hardest time with it is because im still living at home, and still in the same comfort zone. theres not much motivation because im use to all my surroundings. im not saying that you have to go out far to have it easy, NO way!i know a ton of people who are out of state going school, and they have it just as hard. B U T-i feel as if they have more motivation, more producitve, and independent in there life. it's because they're out on there own!im super proud of everyone whos out of state doing school. i wish i took high school more seriously. it's not that i didnt, but college always seems sooooooo FAR AWAY, i didnt think it would hit me.....but here i am. as much as i want to do big things, i feel as if i have limited space.idkayy why i think that way, but i think its because im already comfortable in the state that im in. i know that to find motivation, you have to reach out of your comfort zone!it's hard, because your taking a risk in what you wanna achieve, but it will most def. be worth it!its hard finding motivation for me, but i always think of how i can break this poverty cycle im living in now. i wanna have a big house, with a lot of kids. and i want to be able to support them, even if means suffering now. i want a rich husband, that looks 10x better than channing tatum!(of course, no one beats him!haha) but i have to put myself to the test now.and because im in the process now, all i can say by far is this: IT'S @#$%^* HARD! hahahaha!and it is, but all this crying, pulling all nighters doing homework, wasting money on textbooks that you never use, will all be worth it. and thats what i use as self motivation-the positives on why i want to achieve these things!EDUCATION only sucks if you make it suck....which im pretty good at, because i've always hated homework!haha, but its true!only reason why im still in it to win it is because i wanna be like jack black in the school of rock...minus the belly(ill wear a girdle to cover that hahahaha)

On a good note-

I L♥VE when my mom and dad show there love for eachother...not like that...hahaha, but like when my mom tells her "OHH SOOOOO FUNNY JOKES," my dads the only one bursting out in laughter, even tho we know hes just doing it to make her feel like we get it!hahaha :)

tested.

New week.new day.and guess how it went?it freakin snowed!!i dont hate snow, i just hate the cold.its times like these where i wish i was in forks, washington...but that makes no kinda sense, i know!actually, it does.i would go there and hug my wolfpack bfs.i know theyll keep me warm.it'd be fun.talkin ishh on bella for screwing jacob over!pfft.hoe!okaayyyy, i swear those books were soo high school, idkayyyy why i brought it up!haha!

N.E.ways

I hate having a lot on my mind before i go to sleep.its cuhz i cant sleep!i dont understand WHY someone will have no mercy in taking charge for there own actions!whats it to them?i may be stubborn, but i make sure i take credit or consequenses for my own actions. All i wonder is why?why would someone complain about something so sacred?why would someone misjudge someone with a high standard?what power do they want to pocess with this assumption?why must one suffer because the words of a person who cannot even prove his theory?why would you complain about a man chosen by god?what is it that you need to be satisfied!?!WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO PROVE?? If sticks and stones break my bones, but words will never hurt.why do i feel pain?hurt?offended that someone would even think of such thing. Im not a religious person.actually im far from it. Understanding the fact that no ones perfect, i know that whats going on is just a test. To see if the sitution can be handled.and it can, and will be.as much as i wanna yell, and confront these "righteous" people, i know that a heart is more healthier when you leave it for the highest creator to deal with it. Its true. If a man called of god is put on the line between worldly attractions, and attractions from the highest, the man will let god determine which attraction should be understood. It sucks that many of us only see the negative sides in our lives, but keeping full trust in whatever you believe in wether it be god or your pet goldfishh butch, is something many of us should realize.its only when we are put to the test that we call out for help, but when we are totally comforted in whats already been ready, we push away our help, and do it on our own.its not bad, but be sure to never be prideful or greedy of your self-accomplishments. I know that this test is something my family and i will get through, so for now-prayers and fasting is something i need to focus more on.im glad im venting this out, cuhs im gettin tired now :)

On a good note...

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz g'night yall :)

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messin'around.

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reality.

today was like any other monday.FAIL!woke up to sila bringing her friends over when she knew i was sleeping in the living room!shave me!!!i hate that feeling of people staring at me.creeps me out...wayyyy out!anyway-on top of all of that it seemed like my pops was having a hard morning.he called me to come get him from work and drive him around like the gas was on Full!!that car has never EVER been on FULL!!thats like our family actually being full off dinner.but who has dinner?ahahaha, anyway-i saved all my money, and i spent it all in five minutes on what?????BILLS!!why did i have to grow up soooo fast?!ughhh!

Anyway-

its just one of those days where nothings going right, and even if you try to do something great, its a total mess. Everytime you think of something great, you still have that one negative stuck in the back of your mind!all ive been trying to do is forget it, its not my problem.but on top of that problem grows more, and MORE problems.so much to handle, that even when you try holding your tears back, they over flow out, and everyones staring at you like, the hell??she was just happy, whats wrong?!i cry at the sight of reality!imagination is something i stay more focused on because its something i want!its something that makes that problem not matter.............at the moment.but the more we do away with it, the bigger the problem gets, and reality hits harder, and harder, and sooo HARD you become selfish.you only do whats good for yourself.you only care for yourself, and expect everyone to go your way, or the high way.my familys probably reading this and is like, your explaining yourself!hahaha, i know i am.i can be selfish. Money is my worst enemy.i spend it like it grows on trees!what makes it even more sad is i didnt realize how bad it was until i watched confessions of a shopoholic!i cried!hahahahaha!but the point is. There are times where its okay to think for ourselves, but keeping that as a constant to where your always doing it can damage you. Thats how many people lose trust in others, is because they only think whats best for themselves.i remember when i had a friend.this person would always ask what did i do wrong?when this person knew for sure that what they were doing wrong was totally there fault.and this person kept asking the same question, causing more and more tension between many..and since then, this person is the talk of the town, and has NO one because of the selfish actions this person put on themselves.and we sit and ask whos to blame?YOUR to blame!if you cant take consequences for your own actions, then you cant face reality, and if you cant face reality, then what can you face?what people will trust you?reality is the bigger, harder, more fulfilling picture.although you may have to sacrifice alot, in the long run, you will look back and notice how many lives you saved, how productive you were, and all the lessons that has made you the person you are!never isolate yourself from the world, percive yourself as another helping hand, waiting to be noticed by many. Become your dream, and live reality like service.remeber, there is no I in TEAM.

On a good note.

Me and my baby lamonai have made up our mind.UH-HUH!you know what it is!BLACK AND YELLOW BLACK AND YELLOW BLACK AND YELLOW BLACK AND YELLOW!MY STEELERS ARE GONNA TAKE IT!pakers?whos that?ahahaha!bought bby monai a steeler outfit from fanzz!his pops is the biggest paker fan ever.whoop.dee.do time for a change nonu fam!hahaha love my bby monai :)

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really tho!

Had an amazing day with my cannon sisters.love getting together after church and talk about random stuff!these girls know me tooooo well!!hahahaha, likewise for me!soo happy for nancy!get 'em girl!hahaha love you guys sooo much :)

-anywayyy.

I may come off as one funny homie, BUT-believe me, act hard and brand new, and you best believe ill act B-R-A-N-D NEW!!ahahaha, yah-but who doesnt.people are always going to defend themselves!i know i speak before i think.im a sucker at it too.BUT its something i knowww i need to improve on.sometimes holding your tounge can save more hearts than break 'em. Its funny how i see it!do all the talkin' but cant walk the talk.what are you trying to prove?!that your something your not?!all i want is for people to do YOU!you cant be beyonce cuhz shes taken, you cant be tupac, cuhz we already he was black and crip banginn!just do you.i know i try being someone or something im not, its natural.we want to be the IT!like the clown!ahaha, its alll good tho!aha, seriously if you smoke cuhz you wanna, thats you.if ya drink cuhz ya wanna, thats you!you goin on your mission cuhz ya wanna!thats YOU!be proud for who you are, and back up the things you do.people blame peer pressure.my sister lita says it best, "HASNT ANYONE HEARD OF SELF CONTROL?" Its up to you if you wanna do it or not!no one puts a gun to your head, and makes you do it.unless your getting raped, then thats....all bad, BUT ANYWAY!haha, learn to control yourself, the only reason you give in is because you have given up on what really matters most to you. I should be the last one to talk, but this is one of the many lessons i have learned in life. And thats sad im only 18 and going thru trails that a 30 year old should be facing.fml!hahaha, but i cant go thru life trying to please everyone, i would wake up unhappy, and feel as if i was living two lives!ahahahaha, your probably like wow shes weird......AND????ahahahaha, but just be sure that your ready to accept what you do, and the choices you make.

~on a bon note(bon means good in portugese, thanks bro)

Sila was taking home my little bro hiva cuhz he pooped his pants, and my sis goes-"hiva, why did you poop your pants?" Hiva-"cuhz i didnt wanna bomb the bathroom!!"bahahahahahahaha!this little kid gets the best of us!love my liddo man :)

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forgive and forget.

sunday morning.probably one of the days where i feel most at ease with myself.im most def. not into yoga.but i do feel like my body is mending with my spirit.i think it's from my morning talks with my mom. every sunday morning, me, my mom, and my little sister wake up, and walk straight into my mom's room and talk about random things.we've always done this. i think we do it because my mom and her sisters would to likewise with my grandma. its soo cool to see traditions like this still be soo strong. after a hard looonnngg week, its always good to talk about things with my mom and sister to lighten the load. i LOVE and CHERiSH these times :)

ANYwAYYYY!!-

once again, concrats to my dearest sister fusi and olaiha. yesterday coulnt be any greater, and you two really LOOK like a married couple!it was soo nice to see the family be happy again, reguardless of all our differences. we still came out on top. no matter where you are, or where your from. its all about family.wake up, you could have the worst feeling towards them, or even wanna diclaim them..pppfffftttt, our culture is based on family relations, busting a move like that only makes you look stupid!its soo funny watching gangs these days claim only those they ate saimini with ever since they were young.uhhhhh, CRICKETS!!!last time i checked, bLood is wayyyyy T H I C K E R than saimini water, too thick to compare actually!!realize that once you splat your soo called enemy, you shed the blood of your own. FAMiLY is where it starts and ends. FAMiLY are the people you see in the morning when you wake up, and last ones to see when you sleep(except the weekends, thats a different story)keeping bonds neutral between your own relations with others, only provides better strengths for you, and LESS haters. this is a lesson learned for me, i did have times when family wasnt all that and a bag of chips for me...but it shouldnt be hard to realize WHO will have your back when it comes down to it.thankful for such a BiG HUGE FAMiLY!h2o STAY drippin like watahhh!lol.

(on a guhhoood note)

love my mom. shes a natural at who she is, and all she does. i am super blessed to have an amazing mother figure like her. although i know i take her for granted, she is very special to my heart, and i cant see myself having a more mature mother as her. im the lucky one. to have as patient as a mother as her, i know i am who i am because of her examples, and also advice she gives.LOVE YOU MOMMA! <3

morning maddness.

i hate the fact that i think way better in the morning!!like, the answer to my math problem that i needed help with, uhh yah, how ABOUT i just realized that the answer is 22.the hellllll??haha, im not a morning person at all, but yet i tend to think better in the morning.like ill sleep at 4 in the morning, and by nine i have soo much in my head, i lay in bed and think about it.hoii, shave me!

*ANyWAy:

last night i hung out with my beautiful sisters. it feels soo stress free when im with them.like, the only people that matter in that moment is US.anyway, gettin' lifted and all, we began to talk about our differences. im soo thankful to have such an understanding sister.HONA!!can be the quiet one, but dont tickle her belly, she might just blow!ahahahaha!thanks for that.i noticed HOW selfish i was. its soo funny, because everyone would just nod and agree with me on what i was saying, when really, everything i was saying is not right. sucks that i cant turn back time now. but this is just a lessoned learned. its not so muchh that i regret this, but i do know better thanks to you!!loveLOVE<3 you sis!!

.ON a kOOd note.
sis fusi is getting married today.this will be a fun wedding, and turned out to everything she wanted it to be. to my family-thanks for being the amazing people that you are. we all are different, but when it comes down to it...we all have grandpas nose!ahahahaha, love my H20, we stay drippin' like wata!aha :)