not so awesome blog -__-

These past few weeks have been nothing but total confusion. Like those kind where you seriously just want to grab the shaver, and shave your head bald! One minute im feeling like every things coming together, and making sense....then the next minute, im hit with something else, and it just burns my tower of cards down. its times like these, when i just wanna put on my cowboy boots, walk into a bar, and have it dead silent, while everyone is watching me walk to the bartender, asking for a shot, then everyone says, "SHOT?" and starts firing there bullets, while im sitting there sipping my drink, bobbing my head to norah jones, and ray charles, thinking of all my flaws. That has nothing to do, but this music is really putting me in a soul good mood.

Anyway--

its hard when soo many people expect soo much from you. i know it's because they know my potential and all of that...but the fact that im being seen as that puts soo much on me, i feel like if i mess up, im going to lose the people i love most. I dont want that to happen, but who knows...

Im not feeling any kind of happy as of rigt now. I hate when im not. I know what i need to do, i just hope im strong enough to stick through it. I hate life right now! FML! hahaha.

Hope everyone has a happy Halloween! mwah!

What Really Matters.

Emotions gets the best of us. especially if your a girl, lady, women. At times, many of tend to forget whats really important because we let our emotions rule over our logic thinking. that's why men think we are soooo hard to deal with. I wouldn't diagree with that, but women are usually the one who can change a mans heart, mind, and thinking. I consider that a "Kafi" move that the lord blessed us women with. Hahahaha. Brought to earth to soften the mans heart, Because without us, men would be a bunch of a-holes roaming the earth thinking there always right. hahaha, but don't worry, we would be the same without men. Anyway- My whole point of this blog is a story of what i'm facing as of right now, and how god showed the greatest outcome of what will happen if i do whats right.

This is my brother, Elder Bloomfield who is currently serving in Boise, Idaho. Since i can remember, he was the shy, quiet, kept to himself type...not a people kinda person.. I dont blame him either, just like some of us, life wasnt always grand. Raised by a single mother, income and all wasn't everything he had. But i know we were taught the same things and teachings-we always knew what we needed to do. For him, graduate from high school,serve his mission, and married in the temple...of course everything that stops us, and holds off on our plans is Temptation. but dont get me wrong, we go through trials ony to make us stronger, and realize more what we D E S I R E. You know when your prepared, and fully ready to serve the lord, and nolo was. dropped him off to the MTC, knowing that he will be in good hands. three weeks past by, and on Tuesday we had to be ready to take him to idaho. It was weird. Me and my boyfriend decided to take a brake on sunday, because i felt like i was taking him away from what was more important, which was serving his mission. Sad, and lost as to why i said what i said, i called my sister liu on tuesday morning just to check and see what she was doing.. turns out she was getting ready to drop off nolo. I didnt want to go at first, but something inside was telling me, just go, it'll help get your mind off of alot of things, so i ended up going.

I'M TRULY thankful i went. As i got in the car, i got to see elder Bloomfield, and my gosh has he changed. So positive, so ready, so anxious to serve the lord, and to top all that off, he wouldn't stop talking. It was weird, like 3 weeks in the lords service, and your already MATURE. I sat in the back, shocked, and thrilled at what was happening right before my eyes. A boy who was once shy and quiet, is now a man with an amazing attitude, ready and fully prepared. I couldn't believe it, i seriously couldn't. All i could think of was comparing him before, to him now. Just goes to show that there really is a god, and if you give yourself to the lord, he will bless you in so many ways. I told elder Bloomfield about how it was weird how i came to drop him off. he told me that he was hopping i would come, and that it was the spirit.

We drew closer to Boise, and me thinking that elder bloomfield was gonna be 2ND guessing his mission...i was wrong, he was more excited then ever. I've never seen someone so ready and excited to serve the lord. " i gotta get me a Boise state sticker for our car," and "OH MY GOSH I NEED TO BE OBEDIENT SO I CAN GET A LOT OF BAPTISMS." was what he would say. We would laugh, but be filled with joy because never have i got to experience something like this on first hand.

We arrive to Boise, and it got quiet. Like i felt so calm, and at ease with everything. Got to the place, dropped him off. All i got from elder bloomfield this time was a big smile, and a simple hand shake, " Bye Line." and to his mom, a wave, "by mom. come pick me up in 2 years." That's when i knew for sure, he was  ready.

NOW...

This is my boyfriend, Travis Utai. Handsome, and very humble, quiet type of guy. We both grew up Mormon, and so going on a mission is not a surprise to us. I don't know about you guys, but i believe in love at first sight, and i believe that god doesn't give us amazing people for nothing, but to help us find each other. Gosh, if only you guys knew how much this fella helped me. I grew up good, had it all, but my teen years, just like hump-dee-dump-dee, i had a great fall. Which put me in a bad mood, and lifestyle. I don't know how god manage to put us together but he did, and here i am, deeply, but surely in Love with this guy. so whats the problem? Well, Travis desires to serve his mission, but because of my LOVE for him, i cant see him leaving me for two years. i just couldn't. I would think at times, why would god send him this way. Only to realize that i was being put to the test. God showed me that i can get a amazing, great, and humble man, now all i have to do is return he favor, by giving him to the lord for two years. Sounds better said then done. At first i was selfish, i wanted him here with me, there's always another way to find the lords happiness...which there is, but then i thought again, am i really gonna take what Travis desires for me to just be happy? Selfish as i was, going to Boise was the best thing ever. I realized that god will find a way for us to be together again, i just got to sacrifice now to revive the greater blessing. I know that it will be hard, but i know that if i just stay true to what i have always been taught ever since i was young, all of what i know i will need, will fall in to place. I know that encouraging him and being there for him to go on his mission is only gonna make it better for the both of us. I know god sent him my way to help me humble myself, so that hopefully in the future, ill be able to serve a mission also.

That my friends, is an amazing way that god works. I don't expect life to get easy from here, but i know that it will be worth it. Emotions will always get in the way, but if we stick to what is really true, and is right, will be able to live the life. The eternal life. The greatest blessing. I pray that regardless of all that I've been through in my past, i wont return to it. i know that i can achieve a greater blessing, and i know that with god, ALL IS POSSIBLE.

all about me and my Selfish Love.

If you know me, like real well, you know im very short tempered, and that when i have something to say, ill say it.

My dad says im easily influenced, and i always think with my emotions and not Logically. (gosh, i really hate when hes right)

at times i feel like i can pass as the omen child, or satans advocate..im really an angel tho.(trrrustt me hehehe)

I notice when i fall into a selfsih love. pride of myself.
-i become very hard headed.
-everything i do is not what i was taught to do.
-my every thought is what good will this do for me.
-i blame my actions on others, and expect everyone to feel bad for ME, and not the others.
-i never want to be the reason, rather the victim of every problem.
-i take for granted what i have, and love the things i WANT more than the things i NEED.

I would never let my guard down, because the feeling of getting hurt just leads me to the rut..

though all the times i thought i was above my game, i was really under it.

..and instead of me thinking i was only hurting myself, i was hurting everyone around me.

I am a sincere lover, but also very dangerous. Im fast to love, and fast to regret. So  Fool me once, dont expect to fool me again.

People that dont matter to me, i ignore, rather then forgive.. but what good does that do, rather be just as the same boat as them?(fix that line)

Fake is an understatement. I pick and choose my battles, just because i dont want to fight you doesnt mean i cant own up, it SERIOUSLY just means, you really have nothing i want OR need, so rather then you making a fool out of yourself, ill let you talk alllllll you want, your still not gonna get to me.

My love for myself grew into a sin, and the more i lost myself in my own love, the more i caredless about what mattered.

I never thought i could Love, because i was too fast, and i wanted what my friends had, what my sisters had, what my parents have.

never realizing that everyone has there good and bad with love.

Until i met someone TOTALLY OPPOSITE OF ME.

humble and charming.

respectful and thoughtful.

..so different, yet totally the same.

they weren't lying when they say opposites attract, but i see myself in him so much-

LooOOOoOoOve is most definitely blind, especially to me-one who never thought i could Love as much as i do.

i seriously use to think, why do people change because of there significant other?why don't they just do it for themselves?

well, i finally know the answer to that. As for me-

i see myself soo much in my Lover. He seriously shows me what i deserve, and my potential to be a better person.

Shows me who i really am, even when i cant do it myself.

you see yourself so much in someone, you know you could be a better you.

I mean yeah, it took me to find someone to know my worth.

but to spend eternity with someone who can always show you that every morning, everyday, every second-

i will change myself for that-

God doesn't expect us to live this world lonely, but to find someone who can show you pure greatness.

So i learned to be selfish no more, and to Love even my enemies, because even they show you how much your worth.

talk all about your accomplishments, only because they see your worth.

and for this hard head of mine- i still have to learn to soften it, but its nice to know that im strong in the many things i do. a hard headed women, makes an amazing mother :)

I am truly thankful for whats been thrown my way. Times are changing, and sometimes changing is a good thing.

I've realized that just because my life sucks a whole lot, doesn't mean i should take everyone down with me. "SERVICE BEFORE SELF."

im glad i was able to be a victim of this self-fish love.

taught me to understand not only my flaws, but to know that even though you've been through the worst, you can still become great.

your worth can never go hidden, so do hide it.

Love my bloggers<3<3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo!

Unseen blessings.

Life. We all hate the small times where we had no idea what to do in a situation, or times where we've just about done all we can, but still seems like were making no kind of progress. Once we feel like we've got everything under control, BOOOOOOOM, the unnecessary happens, and back to the same hole we crawl into. I know i was like this. toooo much to handle, i became more scared to try something new, because i felt like everytime i got something good, there was always something that ruined it.

but, I GAVE LIFE A SECOND CHANCE, AND IT GAVE ME A GREATER BLESSING.

The famous quote, no one said it would be easy, but it will be worth it-is by all means the greatest quote ever quoted.

we all have our different perceptions, and meanings when it comes to hearing this, but bottom line is, sometimes even the worst moments, ARE the greatest blessings.

For example. My family. Not perfect in anyway, but because of our imperfections, we are perfect.
My family never fails to keep me smiling from ear to ear.
My flaws and weaknesses, pulls me closer to them in every form and way.

And yes at times theres fights and dramatice moments,
but at the end of the day, Love is all we feel to keep the bond mutual.

Im super thankful for my nieces and nephews.
Sooooo innocent, but yet sooo annoying.
Its them who make me 100% happy.

I seriously talk about them more than i talk about anyone else.
and i know my co-workers are super tired of me showing them millions of pictures of my nieces and nephews.

but there hearts are soo innocent and pure, i feel like thats the closest ill ever be to god, is thru the hearts of his children.

Small things like them are the reason why I keep my head high, and my Love higher.
I truly am thankful for everyone and anyone.
Lifes teachings,
amazing Love from friends,
My amazing sisters...

It doesn't have to be thanksgiving for me to be filled with gratitude. Everyday is a test, and every yesterday is a lesson.

My blog for this week. I Love you all. Have an amazing Labor Day. :) XoXO

For the Love of money...and a lil venting sesshhh.

I reallllly am IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG..not JUST because Finn has that sexy voice...(fantasizing...3..2..1) ooweee, haha!but because its super true.

                                      "IT TAKES LOVE TO MAKE LOVE."

you gotta do what you gotta do to make the world go round. MONEY is the key to all happiness...well, if you use it in the right manner, then money will definitely do you goood.

I never use to worry about having money. it was always handed to me...until worse came to worse, and well...i grew older (booooooooooo!)

Bills pile in, everyone peni-peni'ing for money from you...

when i totally went weird and dropped my job, i basically dropped my whole life.
me, always living in the moment, didn't realize that i needed a job to keep up with my bills, school, tithing, etc.

Jobless for almost three months, my bills were stacked high, and mooching off my parents only did so much.
I WAS SOOOOO MISERABLE, i looked like a homeless girl in my own home.

I applied to about a billion jobs, and....NOTHING..except for vector, but.......they kinda weren't what i was looking for..

then, i applied to the LDS humanitarian center, and stacking my money hiiiggghhh!Lol.(best job ever btw)

I come to realize that it all falls to you. I mean my parents weren't the ones who were in the hole with bad credit, and they have my other two siblings to support still.

to make a long story lonnngerrr, i am now happy that i am able to pay for my own bills, and do things, all because for the love of MOOONNNNEEEYYY.
..its true, money is the root to all evil, if you let it control you. so be smart, and not compulsive like me..one minute i have all this money, then when the weekend hits...bye bye money, see you in 2 weeks!hahaha.

Love you Finn...ooopps, this isnt confession session time-haha

ANYWAY, its venting timeeeeeeeee:(..and the crowd goes wild)

I cannot stand the fact that drama LITERALLY restarts itself!(like a mofo recycle bin and syyyttt)

one minute your like, alright-we coo.
go home, hop on fb-and theres the status about blahh blahh blahh!

DID WE REALLY NOT JUST TALK ABOUT THIS?!?
as much as i would LOOVE to start this whole little bs again, i rather not..

Kill em with Kindness.........UGHH BUT I JUST WANNA !@#$%^(&*(!!
there's two sides to every story, why must you always think yours is right?

I KNOW DANG WELL IM RIGHT!(z-snapping)

hahaha, im kidding, it shouldnt matter-
this will forever be never-ending, so the best thing to do is drop it (again, for the millionth and one time)

and if she believes everything everyone(probably everyone she has in the small head of hers) says.
then let it be, guess my name taste that good in her mouth....

hmmm, LLLLIIINNNNEEEEE....
oohh sooo tasty!hahaha wow dramatic!Lol.

but, this will no longer get to me. when i said i forgive you, I FORGIVE YOU.
its up to you, cuhz really i have no shame in who i am, and what i do, trust and BELIEVE that.

yes i have the nerve to write about you on my blog, but i also have the decency to not put your name up.
Embarrassing you will only cause me to scoop to your level.

..but why don't i tell you face to face??
how many times have i done that?(you'll need to use both your hands for this)
..and how many times have you done this to me?(put your right hand up and shape it like an O)

..so why blog about it?
blogging is my expression place my dear.
this is me being H-U-N-N-I-T!
& if it takes me this far to put it up on the cyberworld, please realize that i am BEING REAL!

I will always have mad love for you, so go on and do what you do, just please, let me DO ME.

..and thanks for reading y'all. until next time, god is good :)

the rebel in me.

Welp, just like every family, theres always that one sibling, that one...

hmmm...how should i say it....

ohh, i know- BAH BAH BLAAACCCCCCKKKKKK SHHHEEEEEPPPP in the family..

..and i, just happen to be that black sheep...im actually lighter than my older brother, and my little sister, but hey, its all gravy!!

no, im totally kidding, im no black sheep, just "special."
thats how my mom and dad like to say it-

well, regardless of what i am, im the.."tocrazyshehasnoideawhatshesgettingherselfintowhenshegoesoutandlivesyoungwildandfree."

"in order to be old and wise, you must first be young and stupid."

It's no lie i tell ya, people learn more by going through there own trails. Words can only go so far-actions and choices and the things we go thru that makes us become more of ourselves...

anway, with all that being said, i've come to the conclusion of one thing...what does every ordinary rebel child want??

...thats right, a freakin' calibur 45!!!(Slapping my right hand on my cheek while doing the suprise look....3...2.....1, over) yayyy!hahaha, no, im kiddin'. but what would be super nice to have is a tattoo!

..BUT, my body is a temple(thats gotten burned down a couple of times, but i've rebuild it) and i know its not right to have one......

But just like a stupid little baby that cries for ice cream everytime the ice cream man passes(even though they have ice cream in the house, and they should just eat that one instead) I want a tattoo -________________- idk, not because to look cool...

..even though i am cool..............................................................................okay to look like a certified 'G'(and i am saying that with 100% sarcasm) but because friendship necklaces, and bracelets can only go so far. I mean, all my friendship bracelets i used as hair ties....
....or to hold up my pants when they were baggy...but a tattoo will stay forever, and you will always know, JUST you what it symbolizes.

I seriously do think some people abuse getting a tattoo. In the polynesian culture it was used to show that a man is now manly...make sense?
...the boy becoming a man..i understand that!

..now people are getting designs that has no meaning..and thats....

L A M E!

you should be able to look into the mirror every morning and realize what your tatto symbolizes.

...but hey, im no judger...im just.....judging!!

but this is all wishful thinking, because i know if i get one...my backside skin is gonna be hanging on my parents wall..

...ugh!well, this is line signing out for this week. <3 ya'll no homo :)

An Eternal Blessing.

Now i know you all are like, who is this good-looking man right here. Well, im proud to say that this man is....MY POPS :) Tipasa LavuLavu Tukuafu. Born in the island of Fuamotu, Tonga. At the age of  4, my dad lost his beautiful mother on the night of his birthday. The 3rd youngest out of 12, his life was not like any other. Being raised by his oldest sister, my dad was a confused soul. Money wasn't something him or his family had, but he made the best out of everything. A college graduate, my dad stands today as one of the most humblest men i know. It takes ALOT to get him mad....unfortunately i was the one who would always piss him off, but i know that it was always for the best.
I never could understand why my dad Loved being the bishop for our ward.that to me sounded like the hardest calling in the ward. Me being the bishops daughter, it was hard for me to try and cope with the title i held. Until yesterday, i finally realized the blessing which my dad held. being the BISHOP was a great calling. A natural man to be called of god, to hold keys to help over a 1,000 souls. Not for the sake of himself, but to always be in the service of others. To have a greater blessing, and to be around the joys of helping those in our ward, and also those who have converted. Bishop Tukuafu never showed his anger, but always kept in mind that there is always something greater than himself. that what he is going through is only a glimpse of what our savior had to go through. Throughout his time as bishop, i was able to be a witness to many of the blessings, and also power that he held. I was able to see my dad in action. Now his patience and humbleness showed through his lectures, and talks at church. He had what me and my brothers like to call the "white mans wisdom." A logic thinker, a understanding heart, my reality check...My dad was the type to make us think about what we were doing, and not giving the usual parent lecture. He kept our house open for everyone to come and enjoy. Always keeping in mind that he had many praying for him, he always made sure we would pray for all.
The feeling i got knowing that my family played a big part in our ward was something soo amazing. A feeling that none other could replace. Our ward is like Family. Couldnt see myself without them. i mean after all, they basically rasied me. For me, being able to see how many lives my dad was able to help was the greatest blessing of all blessings. Service means more to me now because what he held. I now know a whole different meaning, and also have a better understanding of why our church...all religions actually, have service being a big part of there gospel.
I know all good things must come to an end, but this is something i know i wont ever take for granted. Because his willingness to serve as an amazing bishop, and also an amazing dad-I can look back at these past years as him being a servant of god and be happy that he fulfilled his calling. I am grateful for such an amazing, understanding, Loveable dad in my life.Love my pops :) XoXo

Self-Motivation. is it in you?

Its a beautiful day in the Great Salt Lake!Past few days have been bi-polar, but hey!your in UTAH, expect the unexpected ;) anyway-its been real good. Had an amazing time with my 2010 friends. LOVE how were all still close, and that we all are the same kind of KAFI!hahaha, but it was good seeing everyone, and how everyones growing up. My childhood friends never fail to crack me up. SERIOUSLY!they were all pee-on's!hahahaha, jk but bringing up the grand-old days makes me grateful to have stupidass friends like 'em!and no one could replace 'em either :)

anyway: 2TENSiON 

stay grindin'!hahahaha-

im confused in what i wanted to do in life. i wanted to do so much, but had no motivation. i swear im always talking about motivation, and how i found it, and then a couple days later, that motivation wore off, so im stuck trying to find a new motivation. Words of motivation could only do so much- i had to put the words into play. So i wanted to join the army. My brother told me that THAT was the stupidest thing to say...then he asked me if i could run..DUH DUMBASS, they dont call me speedy gonzalez FO'FREE!LMAOOoOo!no, but after all the put-downs, i gave that up...i really did wanna be in the army, but i think it was best for me not to..so plan two-GET  A JOB, and i applied to about a million and 2 jobs. no reply-ugh!UTAH, your killing me slowly! that last and only option was to go back to school. I've tried sooooo many times to ignore this last option. I HATE school, why the hell would i even make that an option?!?!?!i didnt, my pops did-so, i said okay school it is...then my best friend told me shes going Dixie, and to come with-NO KINDA HESITATION, i hopped on the band-wagon, and now am sooo motivated to gooo!and yes, its for real :) haha, we finished my financial aid, and working on transferring my credits. we found a place to live, and im working at Deseret Industries!HEY, im a baller!LOL, i am truly motivated.SELF M O T I V A T E D- to get up, get out, and do something. I've always wanted to live away from home..BUT i know im a crybaby when i am far away!haha-

NOW i know everyones like, shes just wants to leave to go "ve'e haua" and "ifi mo inu." and "partee." dont get me wrong, i mean sure, why not!LOL, but seriously, when it comes down to it, i wanna do school, and actually be better than what i am doing now. College comes with trials, but it's only trials to see if you can over come them. Drake says it bes, 

"im too addicted to this life, it's gon be hard to quit."

BUT, im doing whats best for me-sooo, if st. geezy, be easy and try and please me!cuhz it aint eazy!hahaha, okay i MiLKED!but im ready ;)

well Bloggers. Thats all i have for du'day!!god speed my nigggaz!

Mothers Day Weekend!

My motha-Melini Tukuafu

LOVE MY MOMS <3

This was another successful weekend with the FWAMILI!LOL, yes i had an amazing time, reuniting with my

loved ones, and talking about the lady who matters most in our lives, OUR MOTHERS! the spirit was most def. there in sacrament(yes i went to church, and LOVED IT) mothers are the real deal! there for us reguardless of our imperfections. SO one last happy mothers day shout out to the all the mothers in my life, especially to my dearest mother, MELINI HEHEA LUTUI-TUKUAFU. A mother with little understanding of what this new generation brings, she still manages to keep a smile on my face-still there for me when i need help getting back up-still my number one fan when i sing super loud in the shower. Thank you for all you do for me, and i know nothing or no one  can replace the spot you have in my life. I LOVE YOU FOREVER!xoxo

awee, soooo tender-ANYWAY!haha

It was truly fun to see the whole gang again together!all of our older sisters are prego in there own worlds,and us younger ones are still being threats to society!haha-it truly is a great thing to see, ya know... all your sisters together talkin about memories, and the good old days. those are the times i miss the most. I really cant picture my life any better without these beautiful ladies. They are truly something amazing.we all are the same, in different bodies OF COURSE!haha, but we all think the same, act the same,talk the same-its crazy!lol, love these future mothers to death!

LPG! 

bahahahahaha!

well bloggers, thats my mothers day weekend. nothing but smiles for days on end-

Day one:entering hell(with a smiley face...sike)

My day starts out like this....

Before i get going about my dramatic diet in which i in some way regret doing, but since i started, i might as well-i FINALLY PUT THE KING ON TONGA TO SLEEP!this is one needy kid, and I had to go the extra mile just to put this kid to sleep!UGH!lets just hope he sleeps until his mom calls for him!hahaha-

Now to BEGIN:

 I started drinking this thing lastnight-and OH BOY, it taste like shizz!LOL, actually it doesnt taste as bad as i expected, but what was bad about this was how much it cost!good thing i got reward points from smiths, so it cost $4 cheaper, but still-i hate organic stuff!it was $6 for the pepper, $5 for the maple syrup(and i dont even think thats the right one!) and the lemons were 5 for $1 so, that was the cheapest thing-anyway, i know were suppose to use filtered water, but water is water to me!hahahaha-

Since im babysitting, i cant go out to do my daily run!(bahahaha, i haven't even started) so, im sitting in the computer room starring at the FREAKIN DONUTS!woooowwww, momma wants to buy sweets all of a sudden?LOL, soo to keep me from eating them, im feeding it to lamonai-which i shouldnt be seeing how much sugars in there(thats prolly why he was sooo jumpy, he was on a sugar high) but i havent touched it, so im soo proud of myself. I even went over board and didnt lick my fingers..i let monai do it for me!hahahaha.

MY BREAKFAST,LUNCH,AND DINNER

... doesn't this look sooo delish??I KNOW, it taste like shizz!not laughing!i hate eating fruits and vegetables, obviously you can tell because of my size, BUT HEY-its going away!LOL-i just finished one whole thing of cuccumber, and half of a banana. that should do me good-hopefully...as soon as the family gets home, im off to ZUMBA!my mom says thats the best thing ever invented, i say-screw that, i just wanna go show off my awkward dance moves!hahahaha. heres day one-ill fill yall in on the rest later.

HOLD UP!LAST THOUGHT!

I have to tell the world how much i love
THE VOICE
makes me wanna try out. i mean if that 16 year old girl made it(which in my opinion, she sucked!) then i most def, wil be able to make it on adams team!WOO-thats bout it :)

#TEAMADAM

Moody Mondays-blah!

As of right now it is 10:26am, and i am sitting here with my sister liu checking up on the twins!i swear, all these trips the apppointments, and lius sickness makes me really wanna wait on getting pregnant anytime soon.the whole baby coming out, and pushing like no other makes me realize that im in no rushh for baby-making.as a matter of fact, i dont mind waiting 'til im 40!lol, jk-i want kids, but when im ready...........and thats not anytime soon!hahaha, but im excited to have my liddo nephews come soon so i can spoil them rotten!lol-anyway this week has been another week gone by. Because i dont work or go school, i have alot of time to think.re-evaluate my life and see what i need to improve on. ive let my guard down these past few months, but i know that God put me thru these trials just so i can become stronger, and learn to never let my guard down-EVER!haha, im still trying to regain my confidence back, and im coming back stronger than ever!three cheers for LLLLLiiinnnneee!woot, woot!hahahaha-btw, if ya still havent watched tangled-i suggest you watch it, and quickkkkkkkk!BEST cartoon by far!i would know, i cried thru out the whole movie!LOL, and what, i know that whoever watched it got the sniffles too!LOL.thats all i have for now!bye Cloggers!lol

Ps-i done turned my prince monai to princess nonai-hell ya i got yelled for dressing him up :)

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Easter Sunday

Hello te'e pillows and te'e pillets!LOL, if ya dont get it-learn your tongan guh!LOL-anyway happy late easter to you all!i found it to be one of the most relaxing days by far!my mama woke me up for church...but i didnt go 'til a little later(the important stuff,i guess)since there was no little kids here(which sucked alot cuhz we have a long driveway with no easter eggs to hide, UGH!)me, my pops, my mama, and little sister took a roadtrip in our own state(i know righhhtt-waste of gas, but thats what ya do when ya got a rental!lol) anyway-we went all the way up to ridgeline in north salt lake!if ya dont know what that is,its that one place before you pass bountiful with all those millions of nice houses...if ya still have no idea what im talkin' about-google it, gashhh!lol, i was gonna take pictures of some of the houses, but i figured id look more like a pervert than a person trying to take a picture of there dream house.anyway-it was super nice!those who live there are sooooo lucky to have such a nice view of the valley.you know us ghetto people dont have it big, so it was nice to see the perspective from the other side of the valley.SLC is a veddddyyyy beautiful place!I AINT LYIN' either :) no wonder why everyone wants to live here!lol, besides all of that-having family time was the best.releasing all the stress from our daily lives, and just going out with the ones you love most was something i wanted to be never-ending...but like they say, all good things must come to an end :/ anyway theres a couple pictures-my parents love to show there love-like PDA!not like kissy kissy, grabby, grabby-but like annoying little comments..like my mom would say, "out of all the manys of men that i have dated, i chose the man of all my dreams."(ya my moms a fob, please dont act like your mom isnt!LOL) and then my pops, being the milker of all jokes says, "..and out of all the white ladies ive dated, i chose your mom...because she asked me to marry her!" Hahahahahaha!i can careless of what many think of my parents.I LOVE 'EM til no end :) they'll be the most corniest, annoyest,fobbish parents youll ever meet-but the last thing they are is judgemental-and im grateful that i can be myself around them-like best friends...the three best friends on the hangover-yup, thats what we are!LOL!but yess they are my reasons for why i live-and yes i do love to brag about them because there the greatest and i feel that everyone should know that!LOL, sorry-anyway!i hope everyone else had an amazing easter as we remember the greatest god on high, and as we praise him for all the blessings and thank him for more than we offered.he is the reason why i still believe in myself, why i havent ever thought of going sucide-because our bodies are the greateast gifts that he gave-thank you :) amen...hahahaha!have an amazing week!stay positive, and think smarter, not harder!Loverr yall! :)

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Bored.

Hi, im Losaline Tukuafu, and i have a Facebook problem!YES, i am a camper-NO i dont make fake pages about other people, YES-thats the first thing i check even before brushing my teeth, and NO-i am not in a freakin' relationship(i know, has nothing to do with FB, but people keep asking!)haha-

anyway-BLOGGERS!you bet your hairy bottoms i will be on here more, blogging more, entertaining more!three cheers for me?!?!?!?!....crickets.....anyway!hahaha-i stole this from the devil herself, miss nancy otukolo-and i'm gonna do it, because I have nothing greater TO DO...well, im suppose to be washing the dishes and doing laundry-but...this is more important!haha-

BUT before i start this awesome thingy-ma-gingy:your prolly like wow, didnt know how conceited line was by posting 4 pictures up of HERSELF!hahahahahahahaha, aww come on guys-i wanna LOOK CUTE TOO!!!Let me have my conceited moments right now-they'll ware off in no time!hahaha-OKAY here we goo :)

Three names I go by.

1. Losaline

2.Rosalynn

3.Beyonce :)

Three things about me.

1.i Love laughing at everything
2. i am VEDDY stubborn.

3.Life sucks for me right about now.

Three things I can't live without.

1. my phone.
2. my phone.
3.the house phone.

Three jobs I have had in my life.

1.moki's hawaiian grill(fired)

2.after school program group leader(fail)
3.couch potato(nailed it)

Three Places I have lived.

1. salt lake city, utah
2.matangiake, Tonga
3.with my parents....still!haha-

Three Favorite drinks.

1.raspberry ice tea

2. Lipton green tea

3.water........just kidding COKE!

Three TV Shows I Watch.

1. law and order

2.Community

3. everything on the basic channels.(thats right, we dont have cable!)

Three Places I Have Been.

1. Tonga

2. Utah

3....so by now you should realize that my parents dont work for the airlines, so going places is not what i do for a living!haha-

Three Things I Love To Do.

1.sleep.
2.play in the cLouds.
3.party...the dirty kind.hahaha-

Three of my Favorite Restaurants.

1.cafe Rio

2.DAD's cooking(he should have a restaurant!)
3.Cetos :)

Three of the most memorable moments.

1.graduating from high school.

2.kissing d.masi(you bet your jealous ass i did)

3.fighting the fehoko's.(i LOVE them now)

Three things I'm looking forward to.

1.dying(hahaha)
2.looking for a new J.O.B!

3.finding myself-(thats gonna take FOREVER)

Changes-

Well bloggers-and visitors.it has been a LONNNGG time since i have blogged about how awesome my life is.....rrriiiiggghhhhhttt??hahaha, but here's whats been going DOWN ;)

conference weekend just passed, and you bet your hairy back i had the time of my life!had family from various places come to the BEST STATE!i know everyone had fun, there were just trying to put up a front that utah is what it aint!SHOOT!!i aint trippin', thats why they always coming back!cuhz they cant get enough of utah!hahaha, nothing but smiles here :)

anyway-although i didnt listen to conference, i did manage to feel at ease and make peace with one of my long lost besties. It was sooo random, me mele, and bo were sitting at dee's talking about how its time for us to just chill, and all-then i get a call from CINDY!it was weird, i didnt yell, trip, or cuss her out...i just sat there and listened!now if you know me you'd know my temper is short, and it doesnt take a whole lot to make me mad!NO im not BiPOLAR!im just......but ANYWAY-hahahaha we talked it out, and its good tohave her back in the picture :)

going on, i had the BESTEST times with my reno sistas!my Ride or dies.my uiha bLood line! :) and i miss them OHHH SOOOOO FREAKIN MUCH!it's sad, i have no one really to hang with cuhz everyone that i do chill with are either:

 good vigin marys,

or are married,

or prego,

or super older than me!

i cant trip tho, im thankful that i got to spend time with them, and its always a good feeling when were chillin. No stress-just floatin on the clouds all the time :)

LOVE AND MISS YOU TWO, you dont even know..just back to doin' me now....

anyway i dont wanna cry, but i am-hoii, i have to wait until may!ARGHH!hahahahaha

What else happend?hmmm, ohh yes!you guys are probably like, is the bishops daughter really acting up without her parents knowing about this?hahaha, and the answer is, YES I AM!hahahahaha,no im kidding-i made sure my parents know about me, i mean, i rather tell them myself then have someone else tell em!m parents mean the world to me-although the choices i make arent what they want, but i keep the teachings and the preachings that they taught me everywhere i go.its there advice that they give that keep me going-trust me there have been times where i dont care much anymore for what happens to me-but because i know that the love they have for me is unconditional-I STAY STRONG BECAUSE OF THEM.

.....and wow, thats my life story for ya!hahahaha!see, this is what happens when your not worthy enough to get up and bare your testimony in sacrament.you bare it on blogger!hahahaha.

these past two weeks have been nothing but memories stacked in the box of good times. it's times like these where i look back and say, "DID I REALLY DO THAT??"hahahahaha..

before i go, watch this video-

 ~~STORY OF MY LIFE~~
FUNNY RIGHT???well not until it happens to you!!UGHH, sooo effin embrassing-soo my dearest soon to be sister heimuli got me and my renso sistahs a room FOR CHEAP RIGHT?!ughh, happy as i was, i was even more happy to see that the room had a balcony!!that just tickled my insides! :) anyway-took one tooo many shots of E&J(that shizz is a total creeper) and was yelling to my brothers to wait, so i can sneak em in to the hotel!i done TURNNED and went head first right into the WINDOW DOOR!HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!good thing the only people who saw it were tema and lisa!HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, i went to get my brothers and the whole time they were staring at my forehead cuhz there was a HUGE RED MARK ON IT!HAHAHAHAHA!!awwee man, i still cant get over it!hahahahaha!well bloggers, until next time-BAHH :)

:)

all i can say is i'm HAPPY :)

and no one can ruin this happy.

AMAZiNG!

This week is our spring break. not that ive been on spring break for the past three weeks, but when i finally decide im ready to go back to school, they tell me its spring break.GGREAAT!haha, i aint complaining tho, another week for me to prepare myself for hell!hate school soo much im gonna stop talking about it!ha-

A N Y W A Y -

because i barely found out that is was spring break, i didnt make any plans to go anywhere causing me to stay home and babysit my baby brothers, make macaroni and cheese, and camp on youtube!im telling ya, this is the life.................NOT!im patiently waiting on conference weekend to come!yes i am excited!its gonna be poppin!hopefully, hahaha, cuhz last year-was a recepie for diaster!SERIOUSLY!but no re-runs of that!haha-

sooo, being the bored mother fugger that i am, i camped on youtube!and let me tell ya, i am shocked to see how our polynesian community can SING!and we can sing until the fat lady gets her puaka!haha, seriously tho, i am proud to say the the polynesians have the most AMAZING VOICES EVER!well, for the most part-some people i was just like-UHHHMM, DTM!haha, but its good to know that youtube is one way we can become famous. people say go on american idol, but those judges have

NO IDEA WHAT REAL MUSIC IS!

i swear, i was soooo jealous listening to some of these people sing!i wish i had the guts to post myself singing.....BUT I DONT!BOO FREAKIN HOO!hahaha, anyway-yeah big up's too all of those posting themselves doing amazing stuff!!best of luck to you all!soo proud to be polynesian! :)

im gonna bust a crazy and not go into work today!haha, i dont care-its parent teacher conferences, and all i do is stand for 5 hours passing out papers that parents can get themselves!SHOOT!haha, but its cool-tonights the candle light vigil for Pita Kapetaua, so ill be there for my sister rachael who was the fiance of pita!happening on redwood road at nine o clock tonight, so if ya aint doing anything-come out and support us as we come together and remorse over the death of pita and nielson :)

well, cant write much cuhz im craving some hook and ladder right about now!LOVE YA'LL!

I wanna live in the sky.

We never realize how fragile life is until we lose what means most to us. Nothing hurts more than never being able to hear the love of your life say those sweet three words that makes your whole life complete.i can only imagine what my dear sister rachael haiola is going through at this time. I pray that she will be strong, and focus on baby irie!put her whole life into moving and making a better life for her and baby.
Its sad when you see someone die young.they aint lying when they say god works in mysterious ways. Sometimes bad things fall apart so greater things fall together, and although memories are just memories, those are the times we cherish most with our loved ones. Deepest thoughts and prayers go out also to the kalekale family.moochi was one short kid!ha, but family is eternal, and theres no doubt that we will see him again.
And then japan.to know that the other side of the world is at its lowest, and im here on the other side not able to do much. I feel like i have been taking this life of mine for granted, but what else do i do-all the signs of the last days are here, and im just chillin on the weekends drinking long islands??haha, no but i do hope that it gets better for japan.i pray for all the souls to be saved.
Another depressing week.

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found my motivation!

okay to these past three weeks have been nothing but a nightmare!i dont know, i guess you can say-i was tired of reality. i was tired of everything and everyone!i was PRAYING FOR 2012 to hurry and come so i can die already!I have no idea whats gotten into me. I know education is SUPER important, but i couldnt seem to find the motivation to keep me going to school.IT WAS HORRiD!but no worries, im back to being me again...or slowly recovering-but i am HAPPY again.wayy happy.actually TOO HAPPY that i peed in my pants alittle!hahahaha!anyway-i hope all of you had an amazing tuesday!gLee was hella awkward rightt??i didnt mind too much, i actually was glad i watched it, saves me from talking about "IT" with my parents...well they wouldnt wanna talk about it anyway-haha!thats all for today :)

gag me and throw me under a bus!

girls, women, ladies-WHY DO WE ALL FALL FOR THE SAME GUYS?!?! especially in Utah, i mean rumor has it about most guys, there either undercover freaks(which i fall for ALL the time!haha) then the guys who say stuff, and we totally believe 'em(when deep down inside we know there lying) then, we have the 'TOO IT AND BOOT Its' who will sweet talk you, and take advantage of you until they get what they want most out of you!(thats sex) dont get me wrong, i fall for 'em too, but gassh, it's like they all play the same game!what grosses me out even more is those guys who still have the NERVE to walk around the place acting like we cant see the herpes on there lips!GAG!

i went to a parlay last night, and it was cool, everyone having a great time, living life to the fullest-awesome, UNTIL:this guy walks in, pants unbuttoned, holding on to his-yeaaahh, walks in to the room and yells, WHO WANTS IT?!im like, REALLLYYY?are you kidding me right now?but he wasnt, ooohh he was serious. he walked up to every single girl, and spit the same game, what was even more sad was that girls fell for it!three girls all went into the bathroom with him, and heaven forbid, i can only imagine what was going on.im saying to myself, thats only one guy, i mean-theres other fishes in the sea right?WRONG!i walk out, and see another dude that just finished macking on some other girl grab my hand and ask, whats your style? okay stupid me answers,"the good style." OMG, wth is that suppose to mean?hahahaha, then he goes, oh yeah, me too!hahahahahahahaha!anyway-the girl he was with just stares and is like, he's mine, BLAH BLAH BLAH!i look at her and start laughing, YOU REALLY THINK I WANNA DO YOUR 5'0 foot tall BF?!BWAHAHAHA!anyway, i keep walking, outside to see where my friends at, only to find out that she was with some dude.hoiii, by now i was like, i shouldve talked to the 5'0 tall guy to keep me company!hahahaha, BUT NO WORRIES i didnt!

anyway-i walk to my friends car because she asked me to get the case, and her box of stoges, and see a handsome guy, chillin with two other guys by my friends car. so what do i do?play the "im so drunk, i need help getting stuff out of my car," move. i walk towards em and go, hey i need help bringing some stuff into the house, can you help me?he says yes, then grabs the case, and we start walking back. YES i FINALLY HAVE A BUDDY!hahahahahahahaha, im asking him how he knows so and so, and how come hes just chillin outside.hes like too much creeps in there, and all-im like okay im gonna take this in and come out and chill with you guys. he didnt mind. i put the case down then run outside, he was still there. im like aweee, hottie with a body!long hair dont care!hahaha, but he was like the sweetest thing!i wanted to rape him already!hahaha, just kidding....kinda hahahaha, but anyway-his friends were gonna go get another case and he stayed, and asked to go walk around?i didnt even hesitate and yelled YEAH!hahaha, we walk, and talk, and stop, and do all of that!hahaha, anyway-im going in for it when he pulls out his phone cuhz his girl is calling!OH HELL NO!OHHHH HEEEEELLLLLLLL NOOOOOOO!hes like telling me to shhhhhuuusshh and all, im like HELL NO, KICK ROCKS!and walk away-he comes right back and was all like, dont trip i just broke up with her over the fone!BWAHAHAHA, im not stupid-i wasnt born yesterday dumbass!!I MEAN COME ON, at least turn your phone off!hahaha, no im kidding, but dont get into a relationship if ya cant be loyal!SERIOUSLY!thats one thing i CANNOT stand, is when you cheat on your bf/gf! anyway-i just told him that he needs to stop playing stupid!i did ask him if he had a girl earlier, he said no-dont be soo sure to always take there word for it!UGH!

SERIOUSLY GUYS-dont be dumb, if ya got a boo-be true to her, i mean-same goes for girls, and if ya cant be tied down, dont get into one ANYWAY!i know not all guys arent the same, but after last night-i really only see guys as all being the same. ugh-thats my blog for Saturday-

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