These past few weeks have been nothing but total confusion. Like those kind where you seriously just want to grab the shaver, and shave your head bald! One minute im feeling like every things coming together, and making sense....then the next minute, im hit with something else, and it just burns my tower of cards down. its times like these, when i just wanna put on my cowboy boots, walk into a bar, and have it dead silent, while everyone is watching me walk to the bartender, asking for a shot, then everyone says, "SHOT?" and starts firing there bullets, while im sitting there sipping my drink, bobbing my head to norah jones, and ray charles, thinking of all my flaws. That has nothing to do, but this music is really putting me in a soul good mood.
Anyway--
its hard when soo many people expect soo much from you. i know it's because they know my potential and all of that...but the fact that im being seen as that puts soo much on me, i feel like if i mess up, im going to lose the people i love most. I dont want that to happen, but who knows...
Im not feeling any kind of happy as of rigt now. I hate when im not. I know what i need to do, i just hope im strong enough to stick through it. I hate life right now! FML! hahaha.
Hope everyone has a happy Halloween! mwah!
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