Self-Motivation. is it in you?

Its a beautiful day in the Great Salt Lake!Past few days have been bi-polar, but hey!your in UTAH, expect the unexpected ;) anyway-its been real good. Had an amazing time with my 2010 friends. LOVE how were all still close, and that we all are the same kind of KAFI!hahaha, but it was good seeing everyone, and how everyones growing up. My childhood friends never fail to crack me up. SERIOUSLY!they were all pee-on's!hahahaha, jk but bringing up the grand-old days makes me grateful to have stupidass friends like 'em!and no one could replace 'em either :)

anyway: 2TENSiON 

stay grindin'!hahahaha-

im confused in what i wanted to do in life. i wanted to do so much, but had no motivation. i swear im always talking about motivation, and how i found it, and then a couple days later, that motivation wore off, so im stuck trying to find a new motivation. Words of motivation could only do so much- i had to put the words into play. So i wanted to join the army. My brother told me that THAT was the stupidest thing to say...then he asked me if i could run..DUH DUMBASS, they dont call me speedy gonzalez FO'FREE!LMAOOoOo!no, but after all the put-downs, i gave that up...i really did wanna be in the army, but i think it was best for me not to..so plan two-GET  A JOB, and i applied to about a million and 2 jobs. no reply-ugh!UTAH, your killing me slowly! that last and only option was to go back to school. I've tried sooooo many times to ignore this last option. I HATE school, why the hell would i even make that an option?!?!?!i didnt, my pops did-so, i said okay school it is...then my best friend told me shes going Dixie, and to come with-NO KINDA HESITATION, i hopped on the band-wagon, and now am sooo motivated to gooo!and yes, its for real :) haha, we finished my financial aid, and working on transferring my credits. we found a place to live, and im working at Deseret Industries!HEY, im a baller!LOL, i am truly motivated.SELF M O T I V A T E D- to get up, get out, and do something. I've always wanted to live away from home..BUT i know im a crybaby when i am far away!haha-

NOW i know everyones like, shes just wants to leave to go "ve'e haua" and "ifi mo inu." and "partee." dont get me wrong, i mean sure, why not!LOL, but seriously, when it comes down to it, i wanna do school, and actually be better than what i am doing now. College comes with trials, but it's only trials to see if you can over come them. Drake says it bes, 

"im too addicted to this life, it's gon be hard to quit."

BUT, im doing whats best for me-sooo, if st. geezy, be easy and try and please me!cuhz it aint eazy!hahaha, okay i MiLKED!but im ready ;)

well Bloggers. Thats all i have for du'day!!god speed my nigggaz!