After having baby, it took me a long while to get use to things. It's normal after pregnancy to have post partum depression. I wouldn't say I was super depressed, but it was hard for me to cope with everything. It was hard for me to wake up at night when he was crying, or needed a diaper change. I would get headaches when he would cry. Sometimes I would just sit there and just let him scream his lungs out. Times like this where I am thankful that I have the family support that I need. Being able to have my husband wake up and be able to take care of him, to my family and my in-laws being able to babysit when I need a break has really helped me get into the attitude that I needed to be in.
I wake up anxious to kiss him a million and one times when I hear him cry. When I am not with him, I miss him more than ever. When I am with him I feel more than complete, and feel so peaceful. If I look back at my life and
Know that although I haven't done many things right, keeping him was something I know for sure was beyond the right choice.
He is a good baby. Very mellow like his dad, and a good actor! He catches everyone's attention when we take him around to our families, and has influenced us especially to focus more on being good parents.
I can't express how amazing it is to be able to call something my very own. Neither can I explain how unique this bond and love is. It is seriously something you can only feel from the heart.
I want to be able to be a stay at home mom, and be able to enjoy every minute of watching him grow and learn, but i know that it will be better for me to work and make a better living for him. He is my motivation, and I will be not stop being a hard worker for my son.
He is my pride, joy, and forever my little Moana boy. Xo!
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