Tuesday, March 6, 2012

The Bun Is In The Oven.

I always mention how amazed at where I am today. How All in a moments time, everything changes, and all that I thought I knew about, I had no idea. God, Love, Money, Family. All changes when your the one who's creating it. Pregnant, I am, and more than excited for it, indeed. My intentions were not to be expecting at this time, but I must always keep in mind, it's not my time and place, but god's. To create a child of god is a blessing I've always longed for. To have a blessing of my own, and for that blessing to have the opportunity to pass the veil is one that I truly think has more than power to come to earth, but to have a body combined with a spirit, a personality to compliment the looks, and to go through life's trials and tribulations to find who they really are, is only something that only God himself can do. To show us how strong and able we are as humans to withstand the evil which Satan has brought in this world. I for one am MORE than grateful that I will be able to be the teacher of my children, to show them the right from wrong, to be able to teach this blessing of mine, the mysterious works of god.

Bittersweet, this feeling is. Bitter because how do I teach them what's right, when I for one have been through the wrong paths? How do I as a mother teach this blessing how to get the best of life, without taking the road I took? It always troubles me as to how I will go about this. Like on the TV show "weeds" where Karma takes it's toll. I always think back to my parents, who were amazing in their teachings. They taught me the best that they can, why was it so hard for me just to do as they say. I guess some of us just have to go through our own experiences to realize that what are parents taught us is RIGHT, and no matter how many times we make up excuses to prove that we are right-er, were not.

I realized that my parents knew that I will have trials of my own, and I will be in the battle between the world and the gospel. And although my trials have brought the worst out of me, the teachings and blessings my parents taught me since I was young still are with me. So you teach them young to do right, because when they have finally reached that age where they will be put to the test, all you can do as parents is hope that what your children have grown up to know, understand, and what they have been constantly taught, will be with them always, no matter how many choices and mistakes happen. That's the sweet part of the bitter. You will always remember who taught you what is right, and who will be their even when the sun don't shine(miguel voice, lol.)

My parents always taught me to thank the lord first, before ever thanking them for anything. Coming to realize that my parents make human errors also, and no matter how hard, or how many times they were fed up with me, they prayed to the on highest also, to soften their hearts, for they are learning how to deal with me, lol. I'm thankful and excited that because my husband and I were taught the same moral values, it becomes easier for us to teach our kids what our parents have taught us. The morals which have been passed from generation to generation.

I'm still in my first trimester, and do everything I can to make sure nothing happens to this blessing, since it is still in it's very fragile stages. BUT, I know that God always takes care of his little ones, because he loves them dearly. As for me, I'm not excited to blow up and look like a huge elephant, but the joy of eating whatever I please and have the excuse "I'm pregnant" makes the elephant looking part not so bad after all.

This is one adventure I'm excited to take, and I hope this blessing will become a great singer like me, and a.....alright dancer like the daddy. Lol, god is good. :)

3 comments:

  1. Haha you are so cute Line! You are going to be one AMAZING Mother, congrats!!

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  2. CONGRATz MAMA PENI ;) So happy for you & Travis on the new addition! xoxo.. Love you always!

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